Friday, October 16, 2015

Family Defined







It’s been almost 11 years since my husband left me, and six years since Brad’s wife left him.  Brad and I are so blessed to be a family.  Marrying him literally was the wisest decision I have ever made.  But in that time, there have been challenges, both from within and outside of our marriage and family.  Something we have noticed is that we seem to frequently encounter a few cultural misconceptions and errant philosophies about divorce and blended families, even among the closest of our friends, family and acquaintances.  Even we have had to challenge a few of our own ideas and behaviors. Those things can, and often do, distract from supporting and strengthening families. So, this morning, I want to do my part to clear up a few misconceptions about divorce and blended families.


# 1.  Because we are all individuals, every divorce is different.  There are no “rules” about what people feel, think, experience or do.  Every situation, every person, every family, every experience, is different.




 #2.     Just because we are divorced does NOT mean that we hate or even dislike our former spouses.  We love them.  And we feel blessed to have shared part of our lives with them.  We learned and grew from each other.  We built families together.  We laughed together.  And yes, we cried together.  We don’t want them banished from our families.  We don’t want to oust them from family events or friendship circles.  We don’t want you to choose sides.  No need to avoid mentioning them or skirting the topic (Even when talking with our new spouses! We know way more than you do).  We know they are our children’s parents, and we’re GLAD!  Our children wouldn’t be who they are without them! We made good decisions when we married them.  They are good people, then and now. We want only good things for them.  We want them to be happy, whole, healed and at peace.



 #3. The fact that we are remarried and deliriously happy does not mean that we are happy about our divorce.  It does not mean that we wanted a divorce.  It does not mean that we caused or encouraged the divorce.  It does not mean that we did not fight for our former marriages with all we had. It simply means that although we mourn that loss and that hurt (often the most difficult thing we have ever experienced), we are healing from the pain and have chosen to be happy.  It means we have been blessed and we know it.  It means that we choose to move forward and not dwell in the past.  It means we value our relationships and our responsibilities and work hard to give them the time and attention they deserve.  


   



 #4. We honestly have the capacity and choose to love our bonus children and families as we do our own.  WE LOVE THEM!  We respect them.  We are SO PROUD of all of them.  We don’t resent any of them.  We don’t want less for them than we do ourselves or our biological children.  ALL of the same rules and expectations apply to children born to us and those we inherited along the way.  We work every single day to make sure that all of our children are loved and cared for in the best way we know how.  Sometimes we make mistakes.  Sometimes we don’t understand.  But that does not change the intent of our hearts or the sincerity of our effort or feelings. But we live for and would willingly die for all of our children if it were necessary. So, don’t misunderstand when we express concerns or struggles about one thing or another.   Challenge and growth occurs with all of our relationships, no matter when they began.





  #5. We ARE a family.  We ARE parents, TOGETHER. Even if we didn’t conceive physiologically, we created and nurture an eternal family together.  We are ONE flesh and we make all of our decisions that way. We are a mother and a father, brothers, sisters, grandsons and granddaughters, WITHOUT qualifiers.  We are not a step removed, a step up or down, or a step closer or further away.  But we do happily STEP UP to enjoy the FULL blessings and responsibilities of our family relationships and stewardship.  No partial benefits.  No partial statuses.  No one gets left out or left behind.  No one gets picked last or first.  No one is more or less important. There are no secrets in our marriage.  There are no separate finances or holdings, no topics or knowledge that is off limits in our marriage.  No one enjoys more or less responsibilities or decision making power.  We make every decision TOGETHER with our family’s best interests at heart. Our family goal, our constant prayer, is that there are NO EMPTY CHAIRS in our heavenly home! We are grateful when others regard and treat us that way!









  #6. When we married, our family and home became our priority and primary responsibility.  We must do all that we can to protect and defend it.  That means that we must leave behind our former relationships, and our marriage and family must come first.  That means that although we sometimes share parenting with our former spouses, we don’t share all of the same priorities or philosophies.  Therefore, when making decisions, while the health and welfare of minor children is paramount, there will be things that cannot be compromised.  We will not always agree with our former spouse.  But we believe that those conflicts can be handled peacefully and respectfully.   It also means that those outside of our home (most often) do not have the stewardship (right) to decide that what we are doing is right or wrong.  It is not the right of others to interfere in our parenting/family decisions.  When we need advice or direction, we will go to the Lord, our clergy, a counselor or those who have best interests at heart.




  #7.   Finally, things aren't always what they seem.  We know that family and friends are grieving our divorce, too.  We know what it is to want to pinpoint who/what the problem is/was and solve it.  We know many were very close to us and our spouses and feel they have special insight or knowledge.  But, you don’t know the whole story.  And even if an associated party (us included!) told you the story, it was their side of the story and may not be the whole story.  So, please, BE KIND.  Be respectful.  Building families is already hard work.  Blending families is even harder with all the pain, difficulty and different factions at work. 

Monday, July 22, 2013

AT LAST!!! My Gallery Wall!

After weeks and months of gathering frames from second hand shops, digging through old photos, begging family for historical images, digitizing images, spray painting frames, laying out, organizing and reorganizing the wall, countless trips to the hardware and hobby stores to get glass cut and buy supplies, days spent cutting mats, cleaning glass and securing backs on them, and finally hanging, the project is nearly finished.  Now I just have to pick up a couple of oval mats from Hobby Lobby (since I don't own my own oval/round mat cutter) and I'll be completely finished.  I've never had a project with so many roadblocks, problems and mishaps. I'd love to hear what you think!  Special thanks to my baby girl, Grae, and my amazing and patient husband and hero, Professor Iowa Jones.  I'm pretty sure this project secured their place in heaven.  LOL   



Friday, February 1, 2013

Entry way changes!

Lavender walls and Honey Oak Trim are not my first preference.
This color is one of the first things I changed after we got married!

I needed something big to put on this entry wall.
The ceilings are 16'  and I wasn't prepared to make
an art purchase that would fill this space.
These shutters were out in our garage gathering
dust and seemed to fit the bill.
They still need to be properly filled.
But I love the shelves! 

Family photos were cool here and I think
I might just recreate a gallery wall here again!

Note the light fixture.  I bought it at the ReStore for $8.75
and cleaned it up and painted it.  What do you think?
Ok... a few photos of the entry way and the changes to the woodwork transforming it to my own style.  I love the white so much more than the honey oak that screamed the 90's.  I still need to hang decor (I'm crazy at work on a gallery wall for the stairway!!) but here it is so far.  Got any suggestions?

Time for an Update!

Dreaded Carpet!!
Beautiful white and clean stairs!!

View of the Landing BEFORE!

View of the landing AFTER!
(The decor will change, but I needed to put something there for the photos!)

So, I really want to do this blog thing.  I like the idea of a record of what I do and think.  It's been a big couple of years for me and the changes are starting to show everywhere.

My most recent project has been the removal of carpet from the stairs and a subsequent paint job.  Take a look at the photos!  It's not decorated the way I want it to be, but I think it looks better.  What do you think??

When I tore up the carpet, I found MDF stair treads.  Not the ideal material, but I wanted this to be an inexpensive project.  I bought some wood filler and filled and sanded a couple of times.

There was a bit of a fiasco when I decided to use the power sander after I filled.  Yeah... well... I ended up cleaning up fine dust from every imaginable corner for the next two days.  (I highly recommend that you hand sand if you find the choice placed before you!)

At any rate, after some filling (the bull nose fronts of the treads were especially rough and in need of attention), some sanding and caulk in the corners, it was ready for paint.  I used two coats of KILZ oil based primer and then two coats of enamel Valspar Porch and Floor paint.  The bright white was premixed and worked out perfectly to match the Benjamin Moore Decorator's White Dura paint that is on the woodwork.

Overall, I think the finished result was worth the time and effort!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Evolution


So, here I am, in beautiful Hawaii. My baby girl LOVES her new home and school and to top it all off got a job on her second day here at PCC. She is on top of her life and doing well in her classes. She is making new friends and being her amazing self and LIVING out loud studying, surfing, swimming and socializing. She loves it and is already talking about staying. I'll be surprised if she leaves in December. It is a perfect fit for her and I am thrilled that she is here! It's amazing to see her so confident and competent at such a young age.


Like Grae, Mason, as usual, is making life exactly what he wants it to be. He is continuing to cement his character and reputation with everyone he comes in contact with as he works and plays and serves others. He continues to prepare for his mission with progress steady and sure. About a week after I get home, he and I are going to take a road trip to Portland for Owen and Chelsea's wedding and then go from there for week to Utah together. I'm really looking forward to that time with him. It's hard not to notice the growth and maturity in him.


That leaves me. This trip has been so good for me. I've had a lot of time to rest and recover from a very difficult period in my life. It may well be the most time I have ever spent alone in my life. And to my surprise, I'm enjoying the solitude and peace I have away from the responsibilities of home. I have enjoyed having the time these last 10 days to focus on eating right, exercising, reading and praying and thinking about where I came from, where I'm going and why I'm here. I've come to realize that its time to do what I have been trying to teach my children to do all these years. I need to grow and learn and become all that I am meant to be. That means deciding where I want to go and be and then doing the things that will take me there. So, of course, I am making lists. :) Lists of things I always wanted to do and be. Things well within my reach and other just beyond my reach for now but will be attainable with a little stretching. All things that will help me to be more grateful, more hopeful, more confident, more happy, and more like my Savior. I feel the opportunity to throw off the chains of bad habits formed over the years and be free of that which keeps me and my world small and so much less than it could be. Its time to rise from the dust and droop in sin no more!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are. ~E.E. Cummings


This is an amazing time. I have so much to be grateful for. My son has, in the last year, become a man. It was not by accident, either. He chose it. One choice at a time, Mason has become a man. These are not easy choices, nor are they few. To become a man requires that you make many difficult choices that are consistantly wise and often mean a measure of short term sacrifice. Growing up is a conscious effort. One cannot be compelled to do it. You must chose it and do it all on your own. It's a powerful process to watch and so rewarding for a mother to see her son do it so well. So reassuring to realize that your son understands the concept of self discipline and the desire to do what's right. Those things, along with a strong work ethic, an ability to think clearly and critically and a love of people are a foundation that will help him find success in life no matter where life finds him. This is my boy. How I love and admire him.

Ch-ch-ch-changes....


For years now, I have known that just after my 42nd birthday I would be facing an empty nest. I have to say it is something I have faced with a certain amount of dread. 2010 has taunted me, coming closer every year and now it's here.


In one week, I will board a plane with my baby girl bound for Hawaii where she will start college at BYU Hawaii. How did that happen? My sweet little ladybug is all grown up and off to her freshman year in college. Wasn't it just yesterday that she wanted to be a flamingo when she grew up so she could be "pink all over" and "quarter", "Cory" and "kool-aid" all sounded like the same word? I will ever miss days filled with baby dolls and pricess dresses, a trail of dandilions when she came from outside, and giggles and sweet little girl songs ringing from her room. Even more I will miss a house full of teenagers, tents aglow in the backyard on summer nights, mountains of clothes on her bedroom floor and 4 different colors of flipflops next to the front door. Being her mother has been the joy of my life. I couldn't have asked for more in a daughter. She fulfilled every dream I'd ever had for a daughter. I love you bug. Truly I am blessed beyond measure.